Confessions Plus Some…

Of course now that I’m not posting on Wednesdays I decide to link-up with Kathy & Nadine for Confessions. Oh well…

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I confess that I thought about apologizing for all the political-heavy content or references made this past week or so. But I’m not sorry. And I won’t stop talking politics or sharing what I believe is right. I do NOT support a useless wall. I do NOT support barring/banning people from our country. I will NOT use the term “alien.” People are people. I do NOT support racism or sexism or xenophobia or homophobia. They’re not liberal buzzwords- they’re dangerous ideologies that divide us. I do NOT support thrown together, half-ass, ego-boosting executive orders that hurt and endanger far more people than they help. Jesus taught me to love others as I am loved. So I will. The very best part about this country is that I am allowed to disagree and voice that disagreement. And if / when that right is stripped from me I will still voice my resistance. I do not have to agree with anyone. #RESIST

If you need to stop following my blog that’s ok. But I’m not going to change my tune here in this space.

Moving on…

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I am a terrible hugger. My nearly-life-long friend Aubrey is engaged to a wonderful woman named Alyssa. Last time I saw them we all hugged goodbye and I realized just how terrible I am. Mainly because Alyssa is the best hugger I’ve ever come across. It’s like a warm, strong wrap of friendship. It’s like when someone makes eye contact with you in a conversation and you feel like they’re really listening… except it’s a hug. I’m terrible. I’m the girl that won’t make eye contact and hangs out on the floor with the cat in the corner. My hugs are floppy and short and meaningless. I’m sorry to all my hug-receivers…

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One night I was lying awake in bed, waiting for sleep to come, and I started panicking because for a split second I thought the world was in black and white… The TV was off and I was facing the wall with only the dark wood trim, white blinds, and light colored wall in my line of sight. And I was super tired. Ha… So the lack of color made me panic. I actually thought the world was in black and white.

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I went Christmas shopping for the mutts and told myself they needed nothing, only something small each- maybe spend $20 total. Yeah… right… I spent +$50 on two new nylabones, a toy, and ample treats. In my defense, I thought everything was on sale. (Turns out it wasn’t…. so instead of walking away I just bought it all anyway. UGH.) And then all our family members gifted them Christmas presents so our house is overrun with toys and treats twofold. (I love that we have family who spoil our babies!! )

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I changed jobs and my paydays got all switched around and my system (for paying bills/the mortgage) is totally wrecked. I’m a creature of habit and I’ve been doing the same thing for three and a half years. I am so, so thrown off.

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I can’t wake up in the mornings. It was a 2017 resolution & it’s something I want to do, but I just sleep through alarms until K bumps me and says, “You should probably get up.” And then my morning is rushed and terrible.

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At times my mouth would make a sailor blush (sorry, family ), but my new job is making it worse. I work with five dudes in a warehouse environment. Filters don’t exist here.

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Somewhat contrary to my previous confession, I think I’m too nice sometimes. Like when I’m calling about overdue invoices (at work) or lost packages (at home). I’m always like, “No problem. It’s ok. Thanks so much for fixing that.” Like, I’m legit pissed before I make the call but then I don’t have it in me to scold someone. Even when they probably deserve it, lol.

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And there ya have it… Some fresh confessions, hot off the press.

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36 thoughts on “Confessions Plus Some…

  1. As for your last post, I’ve been a credit manager (that included calling to collect money due) in the past and been on the receiving end of phone calls reminding me to pay an invoice. I am a firm believer being nice, polite, and pleasant gets this job done a whole lot better. When people get pushy or bitchy, the payer seems to take longer to pay.

    As for the hugger, I can relate. Years ago, one of my best friends pointed out that I always gave a side hug. Not a real embrace. Just kind of put one arm around the person and held my side and hip for a hip bump instead of a true hug. I’ve gotten better.

    As for the first paragraph, keep talking and saying what you want and need to say. I’m with ya, my friend.

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    1. I know it’s not necessarily a bad thing to not be pushy and aggressive… It just surprises me how pleasant I ended up sounding when I hang up from a call that I originally dialed feeling pretty pissed off. Haha.
      I’m not much of a touch-er… I all but flinch when people bump my legs under a table or stand a little too close. I definitely need to work on my hugging with those I really love and care about, though. I tend to do the one-arm squeeze or flimsy pat.
      Thank you 😉

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  2. You’re so funny! I 100% agree with you politically and I don’t think you need to stop posting what you think!!! Love it!! I spoil our cats as well and have had a terrible time waking up recently. I can’t relate to the sailor mouth… but can to the “being too nice” thing. hahah XO – Alexandra

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    1. Hahahaha. I try to keep the sailor mouth at bay when it comes to the blog. (Although things slip through on super angry posts… lol.) Our dogs are terribly spoiled. They could never survive tied out to a house or in a kennel- they have no idea how good they’ve got it 😀 Ha.

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  3. I have to say, I’m jealous. The time your alarm goes off for the first time, I’m on the road driving into work… sigh…
    Funny you say that – I always get compliments on good hugs. I have had some good huggers in my life that made me feel just so safe & secure in their hugs so I always wanted to do that for others. It’s all about the arm placement & pressure 😉 haha… #hugscience
    You keep speaking your political mind. the beauty of America 😉

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    1. Oh man… I know I’m so spoiled with my wake up time. I should really get that under control. My first job out of college was a 35 minute commute so I had to be up around 5:30/6am and I did fine. I don’t know what’s up with me now. (I have to be at work at 8- those last two alarms are for the weekend.)

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  4. I’m 5 feet tall and hugs always feel awkward because most people are significantly taller than me. More often than not I end up trying not to have my face in someone’s chest. As someone watching all the political happenings from the outside it’s a relief to see that there are people out there who aren’t waving their Christian flags as they preach absolutely terrible things that I’m confident Jesus would NEVER do or say.

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    1. I’m 5’5″ so usually I’m ok, but my brother is 6’4″ so I always end up suffocating in his chest. Haha!
      GAH. Don’t get me started on hypocritical Christians…. It blows my freakin’ mind.

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    1. Both phone calls that sparked that thought were with people who ended up being very friendly and helpful. Had they not been, I might’ve been a little more assertive. Ha.

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  5. Hmm I have never given thought to the way I hug and now I am sitting here like..am I a bad hugger??? I totally hate when you switch jobs and your pay gets all jacked up. It is like it takes at least a good 2 or 3 months to pick up a new system on when you pay what. So annoying. I am laughing so hard at your “life would be easier if you got up now” alarm. I had one for 435am set before I got pregnant that said “get your fat ass out of bed” to remind me that I needed to get up and work out. I am not very kind to myself, but it worked. And I am too nice when someone else is screwing me over on something as well. What is the deal?

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    1. Hahahaha. I’m sure you’re a good hugger if you’ve never question it before!
      I am SO screwed up with bill paying. I paid the mortgage after the last pay day, then two bills rolled in and I was like, “Crap- I should’ve waited to send the mortgage check.” Hahahaha.
      That alarm goes off in the morning, I roll over & read it, then think to myself, ‘The phone is right…. but this bed is too comfy.’ Hahahaha!

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  6. I have spent my entire life being teased and mocked about my hugs!!! I am kind of prickly with affection (again, always teased about that one) and give floppy, uncomfortable, rushed hugs. I am glad I’m not the only one – hahaha! Bad Huggers Unite!

    Yeahhh, I kind of have that bad mouth too. I REALLY need to drop it with Caleb around, but since he isn’t talking yet, the words keep slipping right out!

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    1. Hahaha. My father-in-law is always joking about how prickly and pro-personal space I am. Lol. Oh well.
      I try to tame down the language when I’m around my extended family or friends’ kids. Haha. But at work the guys have no filter, so I end up having no filter. Lol.

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  7. Don’t apologize for all your political content! I’m not and you shouldn’t either. Tthis stuff matters! Deeply! I’m an okay hugger who used to be a really bad hugger because I never hugged. But then at one my jobs, everybody hugged. So I got use to receiving and giving hugs and became okay. But I have a friend like Aubrey who gives the most amazing hugs where you feel so loved and you soak up so much of that love she has for you. I wish I could hug like that. My first real job was a TV station in production and I was the only girl. I learned to swear in every conversation! It was hard when I had to censor myself because Grandma wouldn’t have liked me dropping the f-bomb! LOL!

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    1. Oooooh… a job where everyone hugs? I don’t know if I could do it. Ha. K’s family hugs a lot (but he doesn’t really, lol) so I have to brace myself when we go to say goodbye to them, lol. I love them, I’m just a little squeamish with hugs 🙂
      I hold back the cursing in front of extended family. Ha.

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  8. A+++++ to your political ‘rant’!
    Also, I am so awkward with hugs. I’m terrible. It made me laugh to see all the commenters agreeing. I’m glad we’re not alone!
    I also have a sailor mouth and sometimes I’ll cuss in a restaurant or something and realize there’s children a table away or something and try to backtrack it. Hahaha. Oops!
    And OMG I am waaaaay too nice!!! I get all mad and say I’m going to be assertive about things but then I DO NOT do that.

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    1. Thanks, friend 😉
      No kidding. I didn’t grow up in a hugging family and I’m just not a huge fan. Ha.
      RIGHT?? I try to keep the cursing to a minimum when I’m around some family members, but sometimes I make my dad blush and scold me across the dinner table. Ha.

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  9. i agree with all that you said – though i have to admit i loved calling myself an alien. i’m not technically one anymore, but still. but no, i 100% agree with you. i haven’t talked much about it because i am not good with words and don’t know how to voice my opinion, but i love reading what other people have to say especially when i agree with them. so don’t apologise 🙂
    i love hugs and i give good ones. but only with people i really love hugging. if i don’t know you well, you get a short floppy one. hahaha.
    do you happen to have a fitbit? i am a morning person, but i am not good at getting out of bed before i ‘have’ to. the silent alarm on the fitbit has totally changed the way i wake up – i set a couple 15-20 minutes before my deadline and then my phone alarm, and i tell myself i have to get up when my phone goes off. it’s worked so far! i bet there’s an app that does the same thing but you’d need to keep your phone under your pillow or something.
    i am not a very nice person lol but if i am really mad about something and the person i am dealing with sounds like they care, want to fix it, or are apologetic? i do a 180 and i’m super nice. but if they don’t care or are rude, watch out. lol

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    1. AH. I can’t understand not treating people like PEOPLE. This mentality of (white, male) Americans being more important than the rest of the world kills me. And I get safety- but this whole travel ban/Muslim ban/closed borders is NOT the way to do it. Grrrrrr…….
      I do have a fit bit and I barely use it. It vibrates, though, doesn’t it? That’s a really good idea. I need to charge it and start using it!!

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  10. I don’t mind if someone I follow wants to post their political opinions to their blog, it’s your space and you should feel free to do what you like. That said, I don’t anyone should be berated and feel bad that they’re not posting about the goings on in the world and are instead posting something ‘trivial.’ Not that you would ever! But I’ve seen it on Twitter a lot.
    Hawkeye is still working through her Christmas treats too, there’s so much stuff! Every year she gets a new toy too, at least one from John’s mom (sometimes I give her one, some times not) and when I try to declutter her toy stash, she suddenly starts playing with the ones she hasn’t touched in months. Little stinker.

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    1. I absolutely feel that people can write about whatever they want to write about or feel called to write about. Sometimes I can’t focus on anything but politics and sometimes I’m looking to talk about anything except politics. Haha. Obviously no one is obliged to visit my page and I’m free to click away from other blogs if I disagree or don’t care. Haha!
      We actually re-gifted some unused dog toys/treats this year because we had SO MANY. Lol! When I clean out the toy bin they always run off with the toys that haven’t been touched for months and were in the “trash” pile. Ugh!

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  11. I AM BAD AT HUGGING TOO. But in the deciding to give one phase. Like, do I hug you goodbye and hello? Only for my best friends? What if I’m really happy to see you? Do you hate hugs? (You see my internal struggle here haha.)

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    1. I definitely understand the struggle. And then once it happens (or doesn’t) I have hugger-remorse. Like, was that person expecting a hug? Are things weird now? Do they think I hate them?

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  12. I am the worst at hugging, especially with like acquaintances since I’m more of hugs are reserved for people I love…so let’s say things have gotten awkward. Your alarms make me want to cry. I’m a one alarm and immediately get up kinda lady. Ya, I know I’m weird.

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    1. Ahhhhhh- I so badly want to be a ‘one alarm and go’ kind of person! I’m totally jealous. Some day I’ll do it.
      (It drives K nuts when I have a million alarms go off in the morning. Lol.)

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  13. Ah, hugs, they weird me out. I am awful at them when I am forced into it. Even with Kris, I can sometimes just stand there wondering what the point it in all is. I like to think I show my love in other ways, not through hugs. Although, if I instigate the hugging, I do put more effort into it, but that’s a very rare occurrence.

    I was ordering some puppy bits last night and some hamster treats as well, and went to pay, turns out the shipping was £12… did I just cancel the order… nope. I don’t even know why, I just really wanted to buy Puppy and Chopster some stuff haha. Pets! They steal all the money!

    Sometimes I think I am too patient with people. But I like to think that’s a good quality in someone. I can be too harsh at times though, and that tends to throw people off and mean they never want to work with me again. I need to choose my harsh words better instead of opting for “but that’s ridiculous” or something like that. I will say though, I am never rude or insulting, I am just particular haha.

    I loved this post! What better way to get to know someone than through their confessions haha!

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    1. K and I don’t hug very often. Sometimes when we’re standing in the kitchen at the end of the day I’ll wrap my arm’s around him for a minute, but neither one of us are very touchy. Lol
      Our dogs seriously suck all our money away. Good thing they’re cute. Ha.
      If someone absolutely deserves to be put in their place I can do it, but 96% of the time I am super sweet and nice to strangers in those kinds of situations.

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  14. “They’re not liberal buzzwords- they’re dangerous ideologies that divide us. I do NOT support thrown together, half-ass, ego-boosting executive orders that hurt and endanger far more people than they help.” SO MUCH YES TO THIS and thank you for continuing to be vocal about this. we must must must continue to do so and also take care of ourselves in the process (i am in the midst of figuring out not to get burned out with all the crap). so a little note to say thank you for being you and i’m sure you can watch a youtube video about increasing your hugging skills. haha 😉

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    1. Agreed, friend. When you figure out how to NOT burn yourself out, let me know. I don’t think it’d be so challenging if something controversial and just-plain-wrong wasn’t brought to light every damn day. UGH.
      Hahaha- now I’m going to youtube how to hug just because I think it’d be funny.

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