I know I rarely post on a Friday. I originally had a live post in the works for yesterday but it was extremely depressing and negative. (Originally this was titled The American Nightmare…)

I bounce between feeling hopeless and feeling determined. Yesterday I completely lost my cool. Even when I have my cool, I can feel how precarious it is. I’m teetering on the edge and I feel it.

We’ve had to make some big decisions for our business & it hurts- physically, mentally, financially. This freaking sucks. But we’re going to keep our heads above water & help those around us do the same.

So yeah… I’m honestly filled with more sadness, anger, frustration, and fear than anything else. But we are fighters and as long as there is a little hope and a little will, we will most definitely find a damn way.

Faith over fear, prayer over worry.

Take a bath, read a book, go for a walk, call a friend, do an online exercise class, pray, watch a virtual church service, play with your kids or pets, listen to a podcast, go on a virtual museum tour, listen to music, take an online course, watch the new movies on Disney+, write in a journal, or sit in silence & meditate.

I have a constant headache from clenching my jaw. First things first, I need to quit doing that.

Can I pray for you? Can I send you some good vibes? Can we just chat? This isolation is lonely, even for an introvert.

14 thoughts on “The American Reality

  1. Everything truly sucks at the moment. It’s so hard to be positive. I’m sorry about your business.
    It’s so hard being isolated and unable to see anyone. I’m glad I was in England at Christmas because I now have no idea when I’ll see my family again. I was supposed to meet my mum, brother, sister and brother-in-law in Poland last week, which obviously didn’t happen, and my mum wanted to come over in June, which is looking doubtful.

    Good vibes are always appreciated and I’m sending them right back. Hopefully we can all keep in contact through Twitter, Instagram, blogs, etc. to feel less alone ❤


    1. I agree. But I guess we still ought to try 😉
      I’m so glad you were able to see your family around Christmas! Such a bummer to cancel your Poland trip 😦 I hope your mom is able to visit soon!!


  2. I think everyone needs prayer and good vibes at a time like this! I am sorry that you are having to make some hard decisions about your business. There are so many in the same boat right now. One of my friends had her pay cut this week, and layoffs at her job. She is just thankful that she is still there for now. I see all these people who have worked so hard on their dream to have it washed away in just a weeks time. It is heartbreaking.

    I am trying to focus on the positives. The time at home with family. The walks around our neighborhood that Zoe and I have taken each day. And the realization that we were taking every day life for granted in general. I feel like when we get to the other side of all this, just going out for a meal or walking around your favorite non-essential store is going to be a real treat!!! One that will not be taken for granted for again.


    1. I agree completely. Handing out the good vibes and prayers as quickly as they’re coming it. I’m so sorry about your friend’s pay cut. It’s tough to be an employee and employer right now. The world is nuts.

      Great idea. I’m trying to do that, too. Hopefully the gratitude spread and continues once we’re all out of lockdown!


  3. I am trying to stay positive and calm but it’s not easy. I’m naturally a realistic/pessimist person in the best of times so being positive now does not come naturally. I’m not in panic mode though. Just frustrated, annoyed. Next week’s post is going to be a downer but after that, I’m hoping to make my blog a place of calm, slowness, simplicity, etc. I’m here for you if you want to chat though!


    1. I feel you. I am also a realist and I feel like I’m teetering on the verge of panic. That said, I’m typically very very calm during emergencies (i.e. injuries, accidents, large party planning, etc.)…. but this emergency is lasting a long time and it’ll be interesting to see if my calmness can outlast it.
      Just trying to take advantage of that slowness & simplicity. I can’t wait to dive in more with your blog content! ❤


  4. I’m an introvert as well, but starting to get a little stir crazy over here. For me I think it’s the fear of the unknown and exactly how bad things could possibly get. It’s scary, but I’m thankful we live in a time where we can connect with each other and share our fears and frustrations. It feels good not being alone.


    1. Yeah… even as an introvert I’m missing my core people. It stinks not being able to have family or friends over for dinner or games or something to take our minds off it all. Hopefully soon this passes and we all remember our gratitude for the permission and safety we have to see our loved ones and spend time with them.


  5. I will totally chat with you if you need to. I’m one of those people that like to make plans and have things to look forward to for my mental health – but that’s not really an option these days, and that sucks. I’m trying to focus on the little happy things and just enjoying a good book, etc. It’s tough though. It seems like nothing is getting better, but there are a lot of great things happening and people “coming together” if you will. We’ll get through it – I just hope that things are okay on the other side.



    1. You are the sweetest & I so appreciate that! ❤
      Man… I'm a planner, too, and it kills me not being able to plan things. I just end up planning out our day (bottle, nap, play, bottle nap, family walk, etc. lol). Hope this ends soon and we all care this appreciate for family and friends and social interaction into the next chapter of our lives!


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