I kind of hate the word “bumpdate” but I’m not looking to reinvent the wheel and we all know what that made-up word means so I’m using it. Lol
If we ever have a second kid I’d like to know how my pregnancies compare so I decided I’d do a little halfway post. Maybe I’ll do an end of the road post too (around 39 weeks or so), but no guaranteeing I’ll have the energy or brain or time to do that. We’ll see.
We’re at 23 weeks and 2 days. This is going to be a long one. Sorry.
I had a little nausea during the first trimester, but I never threw up. I’ve had reflux and gas bubbles the entire time, but I had that before I was pregnant. It’s baaad if I forget to take my pill, though. The gas bubbles are quite painful.
I was SO tired in the first trimester and, honestly, that hasn’t gone away. I did not get a burst of energy after 12 weeks, lol. I’m either slightly less tired or just used to it now. Ha.
Nothing is too sore yet. Sometimes my lower back starts to hurt by the afternoon but I just put my feet up or change positions. I can tell that stretching and growing is happening in my pelvis, but it hasn’t been super painful. Just little ouchies now and then.
I haven’t had cravings, but it seems like I’m always down for pb&j sandwiches, chicken nuggets, corndogs, ice cream, avocados, Eggo waffles, and pasta. I wasn’t a huge pasta eater prior to pregnancy so that’s the oddball. (I did have a week of pickles- I ate a whole jar in two days.) My reflux sometimes makes everything unappealing so eating has been a hit or miss.
I can’t even look at/smell anything smothered in bbq sauce, most forms of unbreaded chicken, or eggs. Salads also don’t appeal to me which is sad because I love salad.
On the flip side, I want to eat Caesar salad SO BADLY. And I really want a cold cut turkey sandwich (but I’m supposed to avoid lunchmeat). Sigh. Soon… soon…
At 23 weeks I’m up about 13 lbs. The doctors haven’t said a thing about my weight so I figure that’s a good place to be. I asked K to be honest and tell me if he thinks I’ve gained weight anywhere outside of my stomach. He said no, but I think my legs/thighs have fluffed up a bit. Lol
I’ve been level headed-ish with a few major outbursts. I cried at the NASCAR race over disappointment. I spent a whole night crying when my bff said she was moving to FL. I sobbed through the trailer for The Art of Racing in the Rain (not cried, SOBBED). I also sobbed through a mother/son dance at a wedding but it was an emotional moment for a lot of people, I think. I really lost my temper one night with Lylee. Obviously I didn’t hurt her, but I was mad and K was like, “Dude. You’re scaring ME. Chill out.”
I cry easily at commercials, etc. but I’ve always been a crier- now it’s just a little more intense.
I’ve mentioned my anxiety/depression here before so I wanted to include that in my update. The first trimester was kind of rough. I had strong feelings of inadequacy and I struggle to bond with the little lady because I was (I am) terrified to lose my own identity in motherhood. I know that seems… wrong? but I am not a naturally maternal person so it was a struggle to accept all those feelings- even though I wanted a baby.
I’ve sorted it out much better now. Prenatal yoga was a turning point as far as bonding goes. Also, finding out her sex helped me connect, too. (If she was a he I still would’ve felt connected- it was just another piece of the puzzle to baby’s personality for me.) I still struggle. I wonder if I’ll be a good mom. I wonder if she’ll like me. I wonder if postpartum depression is going to hit me as hard as I think it will. But it’s something I openly talk about with K and it’s a topic that I won’t shy away from with medical professionals. I found pregnancy very, very isolating at first and, especially as an introvert, it scared me how much that bothered me.
According to my app she’s the size of a chinchilla. Or a Barbie Doll. But I’m going to say she’s more like me and fluffy like a chinchilla. She moves around a bunch- mostly in the afternoons and evenings. K hasn’t been able to feel her yet but I think we’re close.
I think she’s stubborn. Obviously that’s me projecting a personality on her, but she’ll quit moving the moment K gets up to feel her and I think she intentionally gives the ultrasound techs a tough time- especially after they jab at her and piss her off, lol. K and I are ridiculously stubborn so there’s a great chance I’m right.
Things aren’t great. To be fair, our mattress isn’t super comfortable and I contort around the dogs on our bed. (Lately I’ve been moving them but they snuggle in again after I doze off, lol.) I currently use four pillows- one normal, one king size, one body pillow, and a thigh pillow. Plus I kind of steal K’s cooling pillow that he keeps between us (#pillowwall). To be fair, that pillow used to be mine. He stole it years ago.
I HATE sleeping on my side. I want to be on my stomach 😦 And I wake up with an ear ache 50% of the time. Ugh.
I get up once around 2 or 4am to use the bathroom. Usually it coincides with a doggie potty break.
K has been the best ever. He comforts me when I’m upset over silly things, he makes me laugh off the tears, he let’s me vent my frustrations and air my insecurities without judging me. He’s been patient and understanding and so supportive. And he’s so dang excited to be a dad- especially to this little girl.
He’s also been to every appointment except one- because he was on a business trip. He hasn’t complained about the cloth diapering classes or birthing classes that we signed up for. I know that he’s just as much a part of this parenting journey as me, but it just feels nice to have such an active and supportive partner.
Other things to note.
My belly button is still firmly in place which is good because I’m not ready for that.
Also, I can still touch my toes no problem. By the end of the day it’s a chore to bend over but I can do it.
I don’t know if I mentioned this, but both ultrasound technicians have commented on this girl’s long freaking legs and her squirminess. So I’m just assuming that she will absolutely make my organs pay dearly in the next 16+ weeks.
I’m awful that keeping up the baby book. Haha.
My app told me that Braxton-Hicks contractions can start any time (although they’re more frequent in the third trimester). Umm, NO THANK YOU.
So there we have it. That’s about all I have to record thus far. Despite some of my whining, I’m very grateful for where we’re at in this pregnancy. I know the journey looks different for all moms and I’ve had good fortune with baby’s development & health.
I know that was long, but I wanted to write all those things somewhere and I’m terrible about actually journaling, so if you made it this far, thanks ♥