A Grateful Heart

I’m not trying to kick a limp cactus here, but 2020 has been a weird year.

It feels like my insides are a big ball of tangled yarn that just keeps getting bigger & messier. Pretty much like this:

I’m struggling with isolation, social and civil unrest, interpersonal problems, parenting hurdles… but at the same time I’m trying to find serenity and routine and contentment. As K put it last night, “Your [my] brain is not a fun place to be right now.”

But sometimes I can straighten out a squiggly line or two with a little gratitude. So that’s what we’re doing today.

This week I am grateful for:

My husband. Forever and always. That guy is always in my corner and I know how special that is. I am so grateful for his love and trust and loyalty. M is one lucky girl to have a dad like him.

My small town. Every time I go to a large city I feel grateful to live in a small town. Roadside ice cream stands, town square car shows, a lively and beautiful park. It feels like our town grows and improves every year. I feel lucky to raise M in a relatively safe community like ours.

Friends who help carry burdens, encourage growth, and celebrate little moments. 

My “new” car. K traded in our work truck and my daily driver for a new pick-up. So I got the Jeep Grand Cherokee that he’d been driver. I love it soooooo much!

Family members who watch M during the week. I work M/W/F and M hangs out with family on those days. It’s a relief to know she’s safe and loved and snuggled while we’re earning a paycheck.

Healthy communication. The ability and freedom to speak my mind, the education and patience to discuss my opinions and beliefs, and the humility to listen and learn from others. (Granted, I’m always working on humility and education… lol.)

I was going to say my dogs… but then Bristol got into the grill grease trap and vomited all over the carpet Tuesday night. But still, I guess they can be on my list. Bristol’s love for M has been there since day 1 and I’m excited to watch them grow up together.

Of course a handful of other things: family, our healthy & safety, comfort, our jobs…

And that about sums it up for today! How about you?

I’m linking up with Rebecca Jo today for Thankful Thursday!

Thankful Thursday

I can’t decide what I talk about today so I’m link up with the beautiful Rebecca Jo for her weekly Thankful Thursdays

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Time with my brother & sister-in-law.
My brother lives two hours away and I only see him once every month or two. He came home for Mother’s Day this weekend but my mom caught the flu Friday night so Fred & Christina stayed with us Sat. & Sun. We did dinner, breakfast, and dinner again while they were here. And I finally played Ticket to Ride for the first time! I’m sad my mom was under the weather, but I had extra time with F&C because of it so… silver lining.

My friendships.
I have a very small circle of friends. (I’ve written and deleted many posts on the topic.) Even though it’s a small group, the women that surround me are incredible. They’re supportive & invested & compassionate. We’re all in totally different stages of life with major changes/growth/struggles on our plates… but I’m so grateful that they’re always there for me regardless.

Gourmet Dinner.
The way to my heart is cooking me food- specifically something I request. While I cook 70% of the time in our house, there are a handful of foods that I eff-up every time and K excels at making. Grilled cheese is one of those foods. On Tuesday, after I was feeling drained and under the weather all day, we got home from work and K made me soup and grilled cheese. I just laid on the couch while he made it AND brought it to me. Literally the best.

What are you thankful for this week?

Thankful Fridays

November always makes me extra thankful. I try to carry this attitude into the other 11 months, but November (and Thanksgiving) gives me that extra little push. Last year I posted weekly about the things I was thankful for and this year Fridays will be my weekly dose of thankfulness!

Today I’m going to share a story about K that has kept my heart full and glowing.

A few weeks ago K went to his normal hair salon and got his normal cut. His stylist was very new to the job but one of his usual girls was coaching her along (and K assured the girls that it was just hair and it would grow back). After it was all over (and there were no major mistakes), K noticed that the girl who’d been assisting was half asleep at her salon chair. He was going to tease her about it, but she shared that she hadn’t been to sleep in two days because she was working two jobs to keep her and her (unemployed) boyfriend feed and housed. When K went to the counter to pay he tipped his stylist a fair amount and left $20 for the half-asleep girl.

(Can I just stop here and tell you how much I love my husband?)

Later we talked about the girl’s tight situation. He said that another stylist in the salon was getting ready to pawn a ring so that she and her boyfriend could afford necessities. It was a certainly a holy-cow-we-are-blessed moment for him.

So often we joke about having no money to pick up steaks at the grocery store or buy a new pair of shoes at the mall, but in all honesty we have full tummies, spoiled dogs, and a warm place to sleep every night. Some people work so, so hard and still don’t have those things guaranteed to them. I know this, and I know you know this, but every once in a while the reminder is a serious punch to the gut.

K and I would survive without all our luxuries, but I am thankful that we don’t have to right now. More than that, I am thankful for a grounded husband who notices when others are struggling and does what he can to lessen their burden.

-Louise

Thursdays

 

Grateful Heart w/ Ember Grey